“Do not follow the ideas of others, but learn to listen to the voice within yourself. Your body and mind will become clear and you will realize the unity of all things.” –Dogen Zenji
Our actions affect others, regardless of how much we delude ourselves into thinking otherwise. When we are young it is easy to stay in invested in the delusions. Like when I was a wild 19 year old and borrowed Laurie’s car to go on a date. And when my date, Debbie, invited me back to her place, I had a choice: wild night with a hot chick or getting the car back to Laurie so she could go to work later that morning. I remember that night with mixed emotions.
Sex with Deb was H-H-H-O-T! I’m still smiling about it almost 30 years later. However when I got back home, Laurie was waiting for me. The look on her face and the pain in her voice about all the trouble she was in due to calling off work at the last minute was the ice water that cooled the ‘next day’ warm afterglow. Knowing I caused hurt and pain for a selfish reason was a wakeup call that has shaped me.
Terrifying to know there are people who continue to hurt others even after being witness to the anguish they’ve caused. Pretty fucked up if you ask me. One would hope that people would develop compassion and realize we are all connected. Maybe that’s what drives people to continue hurting others. They don’t have the balls to leave others out of their self-hate. What a concept: nonconsensual surrogate suffering.
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